Mamahood

Becoming a mama has totally changed me. Well of course it has right? But it didn’t only change my life and what I do and don’t do. It has changed me. I feel like it has brought out some creativity in me that I knew I had but ignored and becoming a mama has helped me find myself. I have been able to find my own answers for things instead of just following what the norm is. It all started with deciding what kind of birth I wanted to have. Exploring my options and deciding for myself. Yes I talked it all over with Peter but he said I was the one doing the birthing so it was up to me. I love that trust and support he had in me. He knew I could do it.
So in deciding to have a natural homebirth I had a lot of explaining to do to my friends and family. It has helped me grow and mature into the mama that I am. Trusting my instincts and listening to my self and my baby instead of a book or others advice. Birthing and now parenting in this way has totally changed me. It has brought me a new confidence in myself and my abilities. Its still a continuing process and I do have days where I felt totally helpless but I listen to my heart and remind myself of what Ive been through and who it has made me become. I love being a mama, everything about it.

I have so much more to say on the topic of mamahood and how its changed my life but thats it for now!!

Inspiration

To be happy, to be me, to love a lot, to think big, to live in the moment, to live life to the fullest!
Petey
CreationGodYoga on the beachNursing Noni...on the beach
Peaceful nooks like this
And paisleys, tapestries, sunshine, laughter, natural living, food, picnics, flowers, hikeing, the mountains, freedom in Jesus, and so much more but this is what has come to mind for the moment. So be inspired and be you!!

Place of peace!

Peace. Its something I strive for everyday and sometimes achieve and sometimes just can't find. I don't know why it doesn't stay forever and ever. Well I guess I sort of know why but its too deep for me to explain. My head hurts if I think about things too deeply. You know what I mean? If I over analyze something for too long my brain just gets exhausted.

Anyway. I find my peace when I am in Gods precense. When I allow my heart and soul to draw close to Him. When I speak to Him and connect. When I let go of all the things of this world that bring me down and disgust me and just allow myself to focus on Him. When I do that then He does His "magic" for lack of a better word.

I love the way He makes me feel. He strips away all the pain and sadness. Its not that it totally disapears but I can look at it objectively and know that its all okay. He has it under control. He takes the blinders off my eyes and off my heart. He makes me see things differently. He helps me to love where I didn't originally love. He shows me a little glimpse of what He's doing and it makes me feel better for a while. When Im in His precense I feel like I have such an understanding of everything. Like I am not confused about anything, but when I am without His precense I am always confused about something.

When I am in His precense I am able to enjoy everything in a new way. All the simple beautiful things in this world become so important and special to me. Things like housework, parenthood, His creation, flowers, the beach, grass, walking outside, rain, chores, all of it is such a joy to be able to do and experience. But when out of His precense I wonder what is the purpose of all of it? Why should I? What does it matter?

This roller coaster of peace to confusion is something I go through daily but am working on staying a little more steady. I try to draw close to Him every morning before I start anything else. Well I get my coffee of course, He understands, but then I sit and talk to Him and read and just soak Him up. It really has been doing my soul good. I love His precense and I love Him!!

Introducing….

My Petey
The first love of my life. A man of great character and integrity. I really do not know where I would be with out him and he seriously is THE BEST THING that has ever happened to me. And for that I am so thankful. Our relationship is totally God ordained, God planned, God Blessed, etc, etc. We are meant to be together, we mesh so well and work so well together. I love him and I love our relationship. We don’t fight and we barely ever disagree and if we do we work it out quickly because we hate being distant. He is so patient with me and so understanding and I love how supportive he is. We are living and loving life!!!

My Noni
Nonah Mae, the second love of my life. She was born at home after about 55 hours of labor. There were no complications except some breathing trouble but it cleared up quickly. She always has been very alert and sharp. I think she is very smart. She has such a personality, loves to be with people (as long as mommy is with of course) and is a very happy baby. She is always on the move unless eating or sleeping. I love her spunk and fiestiness and I love her smile. She is definitely going to test and try me as she gets older but I can’t wait to get to know her even more. She rocks my world!

Why Hippy Mama?

Well I’m quite new to the blogging world but so far I absolutely love it. I have found a connection with other woman/mamas that I other wise would not have. Being a new mama and a new stay at home mama I have missed the interaction with people that I once had. I am a people person and like to get out and about and connect with others. I don’t just like it I NEED it for my own mental and emotional well being. The blogging world has helped me find that.

I have another blog that I started first called The Wright Times. I pretty much started it just for fun. I have a few friends that follow it who are out of state so this was a way they can stay updated on my life. But now I have gotten a bit more familiar with it, I have seen what you can do with a blog and how inspiring they can be. It has been really neat to find the different blogs/bloggers that just stand out to me or something about it just speaks directly to me and I know if I could just meet this person we would truly be kindred spirits.

But now I want a place that I can be me. I guess you could say in life I sometimes struggle to fully be me. I want a place to talk about mama stuff that I am going through. I want a place to truly express myself, to process things that are on my mind, share, dream, release what’s on my heart, be creative, or uncreative and maybe, just maybe encourage or inspire someone else. I could talk to friends and I do but most of my friends just don’t get me so here you don’t have to get me. I can write and release my thoughts into the blogging world and whatever happens after that happens!

That’s why I created Hippy Mama!!

My Story

I am a wife to a wonderful loving husband who is my rock and my world. We have been married 5 years. (ahh, can’t believe it) We both grew up in christian homes and knew what Christianity was all about and in our teen years we did some experimenting and turned away for a while. But by Gods grace He drew us back to Him at the same time. We found each other through family friends and started out slow. For Peter it was pretty much love at first sight but not for me. I thought he was cute but kind of a dork. It was totally Gods doing because within about 5 months I fell in love. Peter proposed to me out of nowhere a year after we started dating and we got married 10 months later. Since then we have been seeking God together, learning, growing, loving and living life.

I am a mother to a little girl who is the light of my life and joy to my heart. Nonah Mae is 10 months old and growing so fast. We knew when we first got married that we wanted to wait to have kids in order to have time to ourselves but originally we thought 5 years but it quickly turned into 3. At right around the 3 year mark we were ready. We were beyond excited for this little one to join our family and decided to have a homebirth. The pregnancy was fairly easy but long. I will be posting Nonah’s birth story soon.

I am now a homemaker. I love it and hate it at the same time. Like any job I guess. I’m a people person so I love to be out and about and interacting with people so this change has been a huge adjustment for me. I want to be home to raise my kids without a doubt but I do miss working. I have worked as a shampoo girl, waitress, secretary, barista, and supervisor @ star bucks and this job is by far the most challenging, most fun and most rewarding job of them all. I’ve been trying to be creative and productive with my time but lets just say I have my good days and my bad days.

I am a homebirth, breatfeeding, co-sleeping, attachment parenting, non vaccinating, babywearing, natural minded kind of mama. That’s a lot of different titles but I list them so you can get an idea of where I’m coming from. My husband and I have chosen this way of bringing our baby/babies into the world not to fit under these titles but because it is what feels right to us. It works, it makes sense, it fits our personality and lifestyle and it works. I am learning that more and more that parenting is not about what the “experts” say it’s about what works for you and your family. I love learning how to be a parent with Peter. It’s been so amazing!

I am simple. I guess it has a lot to do with the way I was raised but I have realized that I really am a simple person. I am simple minded. I don’t want a big huge explanation, the less words the better. I do not talk just for the sake of talking. I am simple in the way I dress. It takes me about 10-15 minutes to get ready for any given event or less. I usually don’t wear make-up. I love the messy curly hair look. I don’t wear heels. I shop at thrift stores, love hand-me-downs, and one of a kind yard sale finds. I do love my jewelry but only own one diamond (my engagement ring). Although my husband is always ready before me I am not even close to high maintenance. I am simple.

I am definitely a country girl but I love to visit the city. The excitement and hussle bussle is good for a short time but then I need the country.
It’s like that one country song “you can take the girl out of the country but you can’t take country out of the girl.” It’s so true. Some thing deep inside me fills with happiness when I sit at a campfire with family, or have a cookout, or hear a certain country song. I used to not like the fact that we lived in the boonies but now I totally appreciate where and how I was raised.

I am creative in my own way. I am considered the weird one in the family. I am genuine, friendly, compassionate, easily confused. I am in love with coffee, daisies and sunflowers, good chocolate, good food (tasting and for you), the color brown, the beach, the sunshine, summer, cafes, boutiques, paisleys, patchouli, dreads, Jesus, Africa, flip-flops, jewelry, flea markets, all kinds of music, linen anything, my husband, my baby girl, and my life!