Thoughts on Fostering...

Life is so crazy! 

I never would have thought in a million 

years that I would be a foster mom.

Yet here we are! 

I already shared in a previous post
how we got to this point, you can read that Here.
I just wanted to share how it's
going now after 11months.
Yes we've had our sweet baby J for 11 months already!
I  remember the day I went and got her. 

How strange it felt to 

be taking another person's child home with me for
who knows how long. 

 It was so exciting to finally be matched 

and to be able to put a face with the child we had 

been longing for. 

But the heart wrenching reality that she

is not with her mom and dad and may never be,

still breaks my heart. 

Unfortunately it is what it is
and there is nothing anyone can do about it at this point.
Their parental rights are in the process
of being terminated.
It is moving towards adoption which I
don't think has truly sunk in yet.
 I am processing a lot of emotions,
working through all that goes with
this fostering to adopt deal.
It's a bitter sweet thing.

It's always easier to look back in
hindsight and see how God was moving
and gently guiding our steps.
He knew J needed us!
He chose J to be part of our family
and He is choosing for her to be
with us forever! And that gives me comfort!
That brings me peace through all the chaos of emotions.
He has a plan for J's life and He chose
US to be part of it!

I am thankful for all that foster care
has taught us so far.
It's taught us to love even when we don't
feel like it.
My girls pure, innocent, overflowing,
love that they have for J has been such a blessing and
encouragement to Peter and I.
We have learned to accept the fact that there
are things we have to do that we don't feel like doing.
  Fostering has taught us to trust God
with the unknown,
 because man there is a lot of unknown in foster care.
Patience. I think my patience has grown a little
(Maybe a lot) in this process,
we just have to let go of our expectations and wait
wait wait for answers.
We've learned to live in the moment.
All that we were sure of is that she
is with us today and we need
to show her love today!

I found a blog about foster care
the jasonjohnsonblog.com
a while ago and it has been so helpful
an encouraging to keep going. No
matter how hard it is we have to keep going,
 not for our sake but for baby J's sake.
Check it out if you want to read more about foster
care or if you are wondering if foster care is
something you should do.

The challenge has been so worth it!
Although it is coming to an end I feel like
this is just the beginning!
This journey is no where near the
end it's just getting started!
I can't wait to see what else God has for us!!

"My God will meet all of your needs
according to his glorious riches
in Christ Jesus."
Phil 4;19