Trusting Gods Timing

I am 39 weeks pregnant now and I am totally at peace…with everything. I am truly resting in Him and trusting His perfect timing. That is one thing I have learned in the past year or two is that Gods timing really truly is PERFECT!!! We can plan all we want but His plan is the best plan of all. I am truly resting in that. This babe will come when it is supposed to come. That being said, we are ready. A lot has changed in the past 9 months, (an example of Gods perfect timing is giving us those 9 months of preperation) and we are all 3 (me, Petey and Noni) so ready for this fourth member of our family. It is so exciting. At the beginning of the pregnancy I thought a lot about how I am possibly going to handle two kids and how is this or that giong to go, how, how, how, but now I am so excited to handle all the trials and challenges that are to come. I know once I am in the moment I probably will not be sounding so eager to endure the struggle but I will get through.

There will be an adjustment period but I’m looking forward to that and finding a new rhythm that works for us. I know that rhythm will change and evolve over the next year or so but that’s exciting too. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and I CAN handle two babes and all that that implies!!

It is so neat to see Peter get excited about the baby too. He said just last night, “Im ready for a little baby.” He has been so great with Nonah and I can’t wait to see him with this one. We have both gone back and forth with what we want to have a boy or a girl. Peter would be fine if we had all girls (so would I) but I would really like to experience raising a boy and have that mother son relationship. BUT we don’t get to choose and I am so glad because God knows what our family needs. I am just getting soooo anxious to find out and meet our babe. Eeek so excited!!!!

Our excitement is a different excitement than it was with Nonah. Her being our first and all the unknown ahead of us made us ecstatic with excitement and this time we know what is coming and can relax and enjoy the ride a little more. I am talking mostly about the labor but also the newborn stage. I want to really savor and soak it all in because I realize how fast it really goes.

I am also so at peace with my/our decision to have a homebirth with Nonah and now this babe. I am so happy with my midwife and just so grateful to have found her. I really believe it was God who brought us to this house, this area, my job at the time, and the people who influenced me at the beginning of my pregnancy and the series of events that then led me to Rising Moon Midwifery. I am sooo grateful! I love everything about my midwife and her philosophy and how she handles birth. I couldn’t have asked for a better birth experience the first time around. I’m hoping/praying and believing I will be able to say the same things if not even better things about this next birth experience. I feel so prepared mentally and physically for it. I have an amazing husband to be by my side, my beautiful daughter will (hopefully) be with us, my amazing midwife and amazing assistant and my good friend will all be there to make this an amazing birth. Hopefully I will be sharing the story soon!

{I think baby wants to get out now. He/she has been moving like crazy as I sit on the couch typing this post. Back and forth like 10 times and non stop kicks, flutters, etc.. Uy ya yiy!}

pics were taken at 38 weeks.

Conscious Birth Affirmations

I came across this video a while ago and loved it. I plan to watch while in labor for a little encouragement. Pregnancy and Birth is such a beautiful thing!!! Enjoy the video!

Simplify~

sim·pli·fy-make something easier: to make something less complicated or easier to understand.

Yes yes yes. I need easy, less complicated and understandable. I don't know if it is the "pregnancy brain" thing making me all emotional and stressed and on edge or what but uh life is hard right now.

What I really want to do is be by MYSELF for like 24 hours or more. I want to be able to focus on my own thoughts, feelings, emotions, and process everything that's going on in me right now. I want to be able do things alone like shower, eat, shop, write, read and whatever else I want to do...ALL BY MYSELF!! I want to soak up this pregnancy and connect with this little being inside of me and really be able to think about my birth and whats to come. I want to curl up in my husbands arms and stay there for a really long time without being interrupted. I want to feel connected to my husband like I felt when pregnant with Nonah. I also want to feel peace. Peace that lasts and is stagnant. Oh how I want to be secure in myself as a woman and as a mama. (really deep breath) I want...I want...I want...

Woo it feels good to admit all that. I have a lot of wants. And although some of them will never be fulfilled, some will. I am working on simplifying. Not running around as much, not expecting myself to get as much done in a day, and really trying to enjoy the moment. Like instead of sweeping the dirty house, Noni and I went out and laid in the shade looking at the clouds and waiting for daddy to come. It was simple and relaxing and made Noni and daddy happy. I am trying to listen to my heart and while Noni is napping instead of doing meaningless surfing on the Internet, I will read or spend time with the Lord, or just rest. (which I need alot of these days) I am trying to allow myself time to just be and not have to do anything. (I am such a doer)

Anyway. I feel like I am babbling but I just needed to process this here. Only other mamas will understand what I am going through. My heart is heavy, my body is tired and my mind is a blur. I try to find joy in everyday but that is a challenge sometimes.

My belly pics!

These were taken a few weeks ago so I am a little bigger now. I'm hoping to do some more soon. The photo session ended with Noni wanting to nurse, also a cute pic. I'm now 33 weeks and counting!!

Noni's 2!

I just cant believe how time flies, how fast babies turn in to toddlers and so on, and how quickly kids grow and learn and change and become their own little person.
I am so amazed and proud of my Noni girl. Every single day I feel more blessed because I have her in my life.

Check out her birthday celebration on my other blog.

Still SAVORING the Moments

Peter and I both are really trying to just soak up these last few months we have as just the three of us. The time is flying by and we know our life is going to be totally different soon so we are really getting in our one on one time with our Noni girl. (Daddy daughter date on saturday:))

Shes so FUN!

Beautiful Birth Art

Note this is not my work. Just different things I have found online and loved!